A Story for Right Now~

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A Story for Right Now~

I’ve been waiting for a long time. My life has been on hold or better yet, on Pause. I have not just sat back and done nothing during this time. God changed me from the inside out. I’ve said it over and over again that I am not the same person I was before. I am a new creation and I feel it.
My story is like many others and yet it’s so different. It’s layered as with most people, the story is usually a lot more than people realize. Sharing your story can be scary. You are putting yourself out there and you don’t know how it will be received. People always have an opinion about how you did this or that while having no real idea what you went through. They have an idea based on what you have allowed for them to see or hear. But they don’t know the full story of why or how you got to where you are in your life.
That’s me. I want to share my full story. To be that vulnerable and open to other’s opinions that have no idea what it’s like to have been in my shoes and journey, causes me to pause. I skirted around it as much as I could and, I haven’t been in a position to be so forthcoming. Not yet. So that has made it difficult to share. I talk a lot about what I have learned and the growth of my faith from a point of near zero. There is much to teach and pass on. But to share my whole story is still not the time. It started off as quite a challenge to come up with topics to write about or do a video, but over time it got easier. The Lord has shown me the lesson in some areas that I can share and help others. That’s why in my post they may come off as somewhat harsh, it’s because it’s no joke. I want to help others fix their life before it gets as bad as mine did. Don’t wallow in mistakes or bad, selfish and negative attitudes.

I wrote a book about some of my lessons and I followed it with a workbook. It’s to help people work out their issues through simple, thought-provoking questions. There’s nothing hard in any of it so it’s easy to dive in and be honest with yourself. The more honest you are,  with the help of the Holy Spirit. the better and faster the change in you will be.
Our lives are not in black and white, neither is our story. It changes, shifts and twists throughout our life.  My story of change is a perfect example. I didn’t know the layers and depths until I had been on the journey for some time.

I can talk about:

Fear, abandonment, selfishness,  stubbornness, daddy issues, age, fashion, skin care, makeup, weight gain and weight loss. I can talk about family, marriage, divorce, standing for marriage, giving up, low self-esteem, self-care, faith, Jesus, the fruits of the Holy Spirit, coaching, teaching, and the list continues.

So in these topics, I work. I do my best to give what I have of myself if it will help others. I’m not where I want to be, yet. Some days are harder than others but I keep going. It’s not for me, it’s for others.
I know when we go through life challenges and we make it through, it’s not for us to keep to our self. It’s for us to give away to help others in need. Otherwise, I’d keep all the details to myself. I’ve had many people help me through my stuff. Whether from their books, listening to their story or a few who I have had the pleasure of talking to in person. It all helps.  I know I have a lot more to say and share through video or blog and in a teaching, classroom environment, or on stage. I am giving it as it comes. I am following the Lord’s lead as I bring these stories and topics to light.
We need to be shaken out of the rut we have created. We think we are not doing anything to cause our own misery or unhappiness and blame others. We look outside our self when she should look within.
It’s not the same for everyone, but it is for more than you think. I know. So that is the place I am coming from. God is good. It took me a long time to know him like I do and I think I can help others. I do. It’s what I’m here for, what I’m called to do. And I have come to realize everything I have gone through has led me to here, right now.


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